After finishing yesterday’s blog post I kinda get why I left my last job. Not because I thought I was a shitty writer, I’m way too proud to admit that. It was more just to do with the style of writing, everything that I had picked up specifically writing about boxing just make my writing seem dull. There were underlying reasons why I quit my so-called career role and went to work in a pub, but I still don’t believe those reasons were part of it.
I’ve always questioned my passion for many things as I am the type of person who constantly changes their mind. I’m thrilled by new adventures and beginnings – just like this blog. At multiple times my passion for boxing seemed to wither throughout my time at Boxing Social, but I didn’t think anything of it. As I mentioned in yesterday’s post, I still believe I’m passionate about boxing, but how do you measure passion?
I could do this for so many things and constantly question if it is something that I am truly interested in. For example, I currently work in a wine shop and since starting, I’ve found an interest in wine, I’ve considered a career switch to a sommelier, which would require me to be passionate about the subject, but yet I know nothing about it. There’s so much more to learn for me to become passionate about wine, but on the other hand if I speak to people who know absolutely nothing about wine – I come across as passionate.
That impulse to try new things has never worked well for me because I grew up with a very accommodating mother, someone who will do whatever is necessary to make someone happy. It’s rubbed off on me and meant that I will rarely admit to disliking something until I like it. So rather than sticking with things which I have a vague interest in, I always find something new.
The problem is that I always find myself in a full circle with one generic subject – content. For as long as I can remember I’ve always created some form of content, whether it be writing stories or wanting to be a director as a child. Fast forward to my teens and you’ll see that blogs and YouTube channels took up a large portion of my time.
Finally, what confuses me most is being passionate about something but not being good at it. That’s where I partially got lost at Boxing Social. For something that I had been around and done for so long, not to mention the hard work to get into that position, just to find out I wasn’t good enough. It was a tough pill to swallow. However with that learning experience I was able to understand that my passion for content creation far outweighs anything else.
Whether my next job will be in boxing, the police, wine, or even a pub you can bet I’ll be working away in the shadows towards my next piece of content.